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I Hate Myself for Losing You by Kelly Clarkson

Lyrics:
I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I’m in today
And now dying
Doesn’t seem so cruel
And oh, I don’t know what to say
And I don’t know anyway
Anymore

I hate myself for losing you
I’m seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he’s not here?

You got what you deserved
Hope you’re happy now
‘Cause every time I think of her with you
It’s killing me
Inside, and
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can’t be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And, oh
I don’t know what to do
Not sure that I’ll pull through
I wish you knew

I hate myself for losing you
I’m seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he’s not here?

I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don’t know what to do
I wish you knew
And oh, I don’t know what to say
And I don’t know anyway
Anymore
No, no

I hate myself for losing you
(I’m seeing it all so clear)
I’m seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he’s not here?
What do you say when everything’s said?
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won’t ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you

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Two Feet of Topsoil by Brad Paisley

Lyrics:

Yesterday I thought that I was low as I could get
I had hit rock bottom ever since you up and left
But this morning when I saw you with
Somebody else, well needless to say
That’s when I started sinking even lower
And as far as where I am at today

There’s two feet of topsoil
A little bit of bedrock, limestone in between
A fossilized dinosaur
A little patch of crude oil
A thousand feet of granite underneath
Then there’s me

I was kind of hoping I could dig my way back out
A couple dozen roses maybe get you back somehow
But the love in your eyes as you talked to him
Today was plain to see
So I am not going to get involved, but
Should you change your mind
Well you know right where I’ll be

There’s two feet of topsoil
A little bit of bedrock, limestone in between
A fossilized dinosaur
A little patch of crude oil
A thousand feet of granite underneath
Then there’s me

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Hearts Never Forget by tricia_16
72,000 words

Summary:
After fleeing his hometown at 17 in order to put some distance between himself and the straight best friend he’s still desperately in love with, Castiel has finally returned ten years later to attend his high school reunion.

Dean isn’t expecting to see Cas again after he bailed on him without a word so long ago, and finally figuring out the reason why turns out to be one hell of an eye opener. He’s not going to let that stand in the way of convincing Cas to move back, though, especially since they can’t seem to keep their hands off each other…

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Give Me One Reason by Tracy Chapman

Lyrics:
Give me one reason to stay here
And I’ll turn right back around
Give me one reason to stay here
And I’ll turn right back around
Said I don’t want leave you lonely
You got to make me change my mind

Baby I got your number and I know that you got mine
But you know that I called you, I called too many times
You can call me baby, you can call me anytime
You got to call me

Give me one reason to stay here
And I’ll turn right back around
Give me one reason to stay here
And I’ll turn right back around
Because I don’t want leave you lonely
you got to make me change my mind

I don’t want no one to squeeze me, they might take away my life
I don’t want no one to squeeze me, they might take away my life
I just want someone to hold me and rock me through the night

This youthful heart can love you and give you what you need
This youthful heart can love you and give you what you need
But I’m too old to go chasing you around
Wasting my precious energy

Give me one reason to stay here
And I’ll turn right back around
Give me one reason to stay here
And I’ll turn right back around
Because I don’t want leave you lonely
You got to make me change my mind

Baby just give me one reason, Give me just one reason why
Baby just give me one reason, Give me just one reason why I should stay
Said I told you that I loved you
And there ain’t no more to say

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And This, Your Living Kiss by opal_bullets
56,950 words

Summary: Only a very few people in the world know that the celebrated and reclusive poet Jack Allen is just Kansas mechanic Dean Winchester, a high school dropout with a few bucks to his name. Not that it matters anymore; life has left him so wrung out he never wants to pick up another pen.

Until, that is, a string of coincidences leads Dean to auditing a poetry course with one Dr. Castiel Novak. The professor is wildly intelligent, devastatingly handsome…and just so happens to be academia’s foremost expert on the poetry of Jack Allen.