Month: February 2019

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Ignore the Butterflies: Best Friend Advice from Dean Winchester by impatient14
114,837 words, 35 chapters, published 04/15/2016

Summary: Dean likes his doctor, but his doctor doesn’t like him.

Accidental friendship ensues, heartwarming bonding type moments occur, and oops!friends become best!friends.

But best friends aren’t supposed to feel the way Dean feels about Castiel. He knows this. So he ignores all the things that he can’t help feeling. When he sits and watches a movie with his best friend or when they are arguing about which method of coffee brewing is best, he pointedly doesn’t look at his friends lips, or the adorable way he tilts his head when he doesn’t understand.

Dean ignores his feelings.

That’s the way he knows how to keep his best friend.

Just ignore the butterflies.

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How Am I Supposed to Live Without You by Michael Bolton

Lyrics:

I could hardly believe it, when I heard the news today
I had to come and get it straight from you
They said you were leavin’, someone’s swept your heart away
From the look upon your face I see it’s true
So tell me all about it, tell me ’bout the plans you’re makin’
Oh, then tell me one thing more before I go
Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
And how am I supposed to carry on
When all that I’ve been livin’ for is gone
No, I don’t wanna know the price I’m gonna pay for dreaming
Oh, now that your dream has come true
Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
And how am I supposed to carry on
When all that I’ve been livin’ for is gone
When all that I’ve been livin’ for is gone
No, I don’t wanna know the price I’m gonna pay for dreaming
Oh, now that your dream has come true
Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I’ve been lovin’ you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
And how am I supposed to carry on
When all that I’ve been livin’ for is gone

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Inconsolable by Backstreet Boys

Lyrics:
I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
I wanna let you walk away tonight without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling
Oh, if you were here right now,
I swear I’d tell you this

Baby I don’t wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it’s killing me
‘Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you, to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I’m inconsolable

I climb the walls, yeah
I can see the edge,
But I can’t take the fall, no
I’ve memorized the number
So why can’t I make the call
Maybe ’cause I know you’ll always be with me
In the possibility

Baby I don’t wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it’s killing me
‘Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you, to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I’m inconsolable

No, no, noI don’t wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything I hold in
Is everything I can’t let go (oh, can’t let go)
‘Cause

Baby I don’t wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it’s killing me
‘Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you, to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I’m inconsolable

Don’t you know it baby
I don’t wanna waste another day
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I’m inconsolable

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh, I’m inconsolable
Whoa yeah
I’m inconsolable

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An Exercise in Worthless by beastofthesky
26,547 words, published 10/12/2012

Summary: “I mean, you’re–” He gestures at Cas, in his neat oxford shirt and nice pants. “–and I’m a high school dropout who tattoos for a living.”

Wherein Dean makes a hefty living as a tattoo artist who owns the space next to Gabriel’s cafe. Sam attends the local university. When Gabe’s cousin comes to live with him while starting grad school at Sam’s university, Dean thinks for sure that all his negative karma’s coming to bite him in the ass because Cas clearly has a thing for Sam. No one would ever choose him over Sam. That’s just logic.